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[Broken1107]

So this is long. I fell in love with this boy, my best friend (lets call him C) in january. In february, my sister and best friend, both convinced me to tell him. To start with nothing much happened. But then in march i went out with someone else(we'll call him J), still in love with C but I went out with J to try and get over C. My best friend used to sit next to him in some of their lessons and she told him i'd moved on. That was the day she realised he liked me. As i was going out with J, C was always asking where he was when he wasn't with me. After 2weeks I dumped J because i realised i'd hurt him in the end and i still wasn't over C. After that, things with C went from good to better. We started acting like we were going out. We had silly little arguments about who loved who more. He was my world. He stopped me from committing suicide a number of times. And as the days went by i was falling harder and harder in love. No one had ever made me feel as special as he did, or as loved as he did, or made me cry so much from the sweet things he said and did. The only thing was that he would never actually go out with me. His reasons were because he's not good enough for me. This was the one thing that always hurt me about him. Because i have such low self confidence, that it made me think i was he one that wasn't good enough. At the end of last year, we got even closer, so close he kissed me, only on the cheek, but that still counts. Right? Then i went on holiday and everything changed. We were constantly inboxing each other and saying "i love you" and "i miss you" but then i suddenly started getting really scary feelings. Ones which made me think i was loosing him. When i got back, he asked me if i still liked him. I told him the truth, that i did, and asked him, to which he also said he did. But something still felt wrong. And then a few days later he told me he'd moved on during the summer while i was away. This has hurt me so much. And to start with he wouldn't even talk to me, which hurt more. But then a few days later he told me he'd lied and had never moved on. The only reason was because we will never go out and it's unfair the way he had been treating me. Slowly our friendshup is going back to normal, but i miss him so much and am scared. I'm scared 'cause i know that the chances of me surviving without him, are low. I love him, but i miss him so so much. And i don't know what to do or how to get him back? I love you C.A

Please help me?

[Broken1107]

thank you to everyone that's got this to 149 views and not bothered to try and actually help. thanks.

[jayemtee]

I'm sorry to tell you this, but it seems like he was using you as anchorage. He may have been doing to you what you were doing when you were with "J." He was flirting with you to get over someone; or he couldn't make up his mind between you and someone else. He may have feelings for you, but he's obviously confused right now. I would suggest moving on from him, and if in time he comes around, try giving him a second chance--but don't jump into the "I love yous" so quickly.

Good Luck.