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[Lilliesunshine]

So these past couple of days i've just been i guess you could say "lost" in my own head.All the past problems i've had just keep coming back like a replay of everything im runing from.I havnt always been a good person and i've made peace with that im mean and angered easily,i push people away and lie to protect myself due to this i relise ive wound up alone with little to no friends,i had a boyfriend who treated my soo well about a year ago,and i let him pressure me into giving him my virginity,i wasnt ready at all i relise this now,but we were together and strong for 2 months then i met a guy friend and we hung out alot my ex thought i was cheating and ended up cheating on me and hidding behind his band practices with her for about a month on our 3 month anniversary i found out,i guess thats what broke me i wasnt pretty enough i wasnt there enough,i wasnt good enough for him i loved him so much and he broke me,then alot of shit went down with a mutuial friend we had and he wouldnt leave me alone his band our old friend and everyone made me feel like dirt and i did something wrong i no longer have any friends,my ex's band is pretty big here and everyone knows them and it makes me nervous everytime i see a post from one of them i just want to one and hide,i still love him.:C

then my only girl friend is just there it seems like i cant be her best friend or anything im just someone that can drive and be there to chill

im just lost i dont know wha to do to make myself feel ok anymore

Edited by OverDrive, 19 January 2012 - 10:37 PM.
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[Michie]

Hey, I know it's been a while since you wrote this, but I hope you are feeling better than you were then. It sounds like you want to reach out and talk to someone, or a friend, but it's not so easy at the moment because of your ex-bf being in the picture (by that I mean his band and stuff).

Let us know if you have any updates.