Scared Stiff

Hey I'm Erica :)
I love to do what anyother teenagers do - meet up with friends, goof around, bother strangers etc.
But I hide half of myself from the world because I'm not prepared to say the things running round in my head.
I've been scared of the world since I was 8. I couldn't be alone, have my back open to rooms or open a cupboard without being able to see whats behind it.
Multiple years later and I'm getting worse.
I put up a hard front to my friends and family who don't know what's going on because I'm scared they won't understand and I would've wasted my breath.
Last time I slept properly (as in more that 6 hours a night) was February 8th. I remember because it was the day my mum said I was a waste of space.
Aside from all that shit I love to act because I get to escape this crappy life I live and be someone else for even a fraction of a second.