I'm Scared About Tomorrow
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I'm Scared About Tomorrow
It was my idea to, spur of the moment type-thingdon't even know where/why I asked, ask a friend of mine if she wanted to go to a theme park tomorrow instead of work (Replacements found though) Well, she said yea, then I said well let's get some other ppl too, I meant like a small group of 4....Well, we keep walking aorund, and pretty soon we've got about 10 ppl goin, she knows 'em all, and we keep askin, some I don't know, some I'm hopin she doens't ask. We end up invitin a guy I think I like, and this one...strange kid, who may like me, but I'm not sure. The guy I think I like was invited by me *whoa* after him, so I'm not so sure that other kid will be too comfortable. (I...don't even know why I bother, but I do like some ppl at work, and I invited theone I think is most approachable...) The problem is...I've only hung out with friends once, and it was small groupd of 3, who actually wanted me there. I don't even know most of these ppl going, and I'm scared that it will turn out like everywhere else I am with other people....I'm just there watching everybody else have fun, and laugh, and flirt. And I'm not even there at all, and just feel extremely left out...like always though.
*Oh, btw, my mom doens't know I'm going...my older sis and bro (in another state tho) do, hopefully I can get back around the same time as my shift ends...
The thing is, I started all of this, I can't even believe that, I found out some things about 2 other ppl I think I like--that they're still awesome ppl who'd I love to be friends with, if I could ever manage my shy self to talk to them (w/out everybody else around--that's just the way I am...)--but I'm really afraid that it will just turn out like school, or work, or meetings, or anything where I am and other ppl around my age are...I'm just there to watch, and to not really "hang with." Real sorry if this does not belong in here. Please, any comments welcome. :| Thanx.
I'm sry y'all but my thoughts have been real scattered and unorganized today...
*Oh, btw, my mom doens't know I'm going...my older sis and bro (in another state tho) do, hopefully I can get back around the same time as my shift ends...
The thing is, I started all of this, I can't even believe that, I found out some things about 2 other ppl I think I like--that they're still awesome ppl who'd I love to be friends with, if I could ever manage my shy self to talk to them (w/out everybody else around--that's just the way I am...)--but I'm really afraid that it will just turn out like school, or work, or meetings, or anything where I am and other ppl around my age are...I'm just there to watch, and to not really "hang with." Real sorry if this does not belong in here. Please, any comments welcome. :| Thanx.
I'm sry y'all but my thoughts have been real scattered and unorganized today...
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I know how you feel. Ill go places with people and they seem to be having so much fun and I just feel like I dont belong. The only thing you can do is keep yourself in the conversations. Talk, joke, flirt..all fun things! Invite that guy you like to sit with you on a ride...maybe a roller coaster or somethin and you can act the damsel in distress. lol Just have fun! Im sure your friends wouldnt intentionally leave you out so just keep in the convos and youll have fun!
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It's the little things that make a big difference.
In case you hadn't noticed...4-letter words:
love - hate - true - life
"And there are voices
That want to be heard
So much to mention
But you can't find the words"
--Listen to Your Heart, DHT
I can't erase myself, but I can try to move on.
In case you hadn't noticed...4-letter words:
love - hate - true - life
"And there are voices
That want to be heard
So much to mention
But you can't find the words"
--Listen to Your Heart, DHT
I can't erase myself, but I can try to move on.
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i get the not being able to afford things bit. I am one of the poorest of my friends...but i dont let that get to me. You shouldnt either. I dont get the shy thing being as I never have been a shy person but just be yourself. Youll have fun dont worry!
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Re: I'm Scared About Tomorrow
I know it's hard to open up to people...but if your friend likes you (and clearly she does if she agreed to go with you), you will be okay. You have at least ONE person you are comfortable to talk to. So if you are ever afraid to address the other people, address her instead.
I'm not much of a talker too ,and I like to listen into conversations a lot. And it's okay if you're more comfortable to listen to others talk than to talk yourself. It's all a matter of what you're comfortable with.
Honestly I have friends who don't talk much, and that hasn't kept us from inviting them places.
Going to an amusement park can be really fun. And I bet you will have a lot of fun too. Don't be afraid if someone (like the guys there) address you, ask you something, or try to start a conversation with you. Just respond to them, however your gut tells you to, and let it be. Regardless of what you say to these guys, I bet you'll be liked by the end of the day.
I've said really random, and inappropriate things in front of guys sometiems. And ya know what, they still laugh at my stupid mistakes now. And they still like me.
Have fun at the amusement park. And focus on having a good time.
I'm not much of a talker too ,and I like to listen into conversations a lot. And it's okay if you're more comfortable to listen to others talk than to talk yourself. It's all a matter of what you're comfortable with.
Honestly I have friends who don't talk much, and that hasn't kept us from inviting them places.
Going to an amusement park can be really fun. And I bet you will have a lot of fun too. Don't be afraid if someone (like the guys there) address you, ask you something, or try to start a conversation with you. Just respond to them, however your gut tells you to, and let it be. Regardless of what you say to these guys, I bet you'll be liked by the end of the day.
I've said really random, and inappropriate things in front of guys sometiems. And ya know what, they still laugh at my stupid mistakes now. And they still like me.
Have fun at the amusement park. And focus on having a good time.
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It's my life and I screwed it-You're not to blame
And though I keep on trying, it's so hard to change.
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You can see me through these metal bars-I won't let you in
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And though I keep on trying, it's so hard to change.
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Ok, surprisingly, I had a really good time. We ended up splitting ourselves into 4 guys and 4 girls (like car full of girls, car full of guys), but it worked out cuz we stayed together on the rides. (Umm, ok...that was dumb.) (Sorry, I always...screw things up...say the wrong things, yea...sorry....It's fate...I guess). Umm, like I said, I had a lot of fun. We split up again and 3 of us went to the attached waterpark, and the others stayed around waiting in line for somethin that they didn't ride after all. My mom never found out..*thank goodness* We were stuck in rush hour traffic, so I called and told her I worked late, and got held up by traffic. So yeah, still can't believe I pulled that off. Or maybe I can. Ok, well I'm gonna go now....Thanx. Bye.
It's the little things that make a big difference.
In case you hadn't noticed...4-letter words:
love - hate - true - life
"And there are voices
That want to be heard
So much to mention
But you can't find the words"
--Listen to Your Heart, DHT
I can't erase myself, but I can try to move on.
In case you hadn't noticed...4-letter words:
love - hate - true - life
"And there are voices
That want to be heard
So much to mention
But you can't find the words"
--Listen to Your Heart, DHT
I can't erase myself, but I can try to move on.
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Ahh, got to this a little late-
I'm glad you had fun-- did you talk to the guy you think you like at all? Get closer to anyone, make any better friends?
I'm glad you had fun-- did you talk to the guy you think you like at all? Get closer to anyone, make any better friends?
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Glad you asked...
No, I tired, but I can never keep conversations going...
I guess, I just shouldn't like ppl, cuz they'll never like me back. Guess, I'll just have to wait til someone likes me first, then I like them....
I had fun, but I've gone back into that depressed mode again...So, I"m back to my normal self, I suppose. Oh, I've also started being quiet again, and isolating myself. I knew it wouldn't last..
No, I tired, but I can never keep conversations going...
I guess, I just shouldn't like ppl, cuz they'll never like me back. Guess, I'll just have to wait til someone likes me first, then I like them....
I had fun, but I've gone back into that depressed mode again...So, I"m back to my normal self, I suppose. Oh, I've also started being quiet again, and isolating myself. I knew it wouldn't last..
It's the little things that make a big difference.
In case you hadn't noticed...4-letter words:
love - hate - true - life
"And there are voices
That want to be heard
So much to mention
But you can't find the words"
--Listen to Your Heart, DHT
I can't erase myself, but I can try to move on.
In case you hadn't noticed...4-letter words:
love - hate - true - life
"And there are voices
That want to be heard
So much to mention
But you can't find the words"
--Listen to Your Heart, DHT
I can't erase myself, but I can try to move on.
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Hey hunny ,
I totally know how you feel. It's hard when your shy andyou think you dont have anything in common wit people, but im glad you have fun. Really the best thing to do is look at all your good points and the things you do have in common wit people not the things you dont. Like honestly if someone had said that to me a year ago i would have laughed but it works you become more confident and self assured.You just have to start a conversation and it doesnt matter if its something people dont know about just do it and speak as confident as you can. Dont get depressed and isolate yourself ,think of all the fun you can be having with your friends. Get out there be confident and have fun. Your only young once!
I totally know how you feel. It's hard when your shy andyou think you dont have anything in common wit people, but im glad you have fun. Really the best thing to do is look at all your good points and the things you do have in common wit people not the things you dont. Like honestly if someone had said that to me a year ago i would have laughed but it works you become more confident and self assured.You just have to start a conversation and it doesnt matter if its something people dont know about just do it and speak as confident as you can. Dont get depressed and isolate yourself ,think of all the fun you can be having with your friends. Get out there be confident and have fun. Your only young once!
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I know, but for some reason I don't want to think positively, or good things. It seems like I wanna stay in this position until it's worked out the/a way I want it worked out....SO, I seem to be staying here (in this position) until I change, and until then, things won't change, and ppl won't care or see me as anything, including myself.
It's the little things that make a big difference.
In case you hadn't noticed...4-letter words:
love - hate - true - life
"And there are voices
That want to be heard
So much to mention
But you can't find the words"
--Listen to Your Heart, DHT
I can't erase myself, but I can try to move on.
In case you hadn't noticed...4-letter words:
love - hate - true - life
"And there are voices
That want to be heard
So much to mention
But you can't find the words"
--Listen to Your Heart, DHT
I can't erase myself, but I can try to move on.
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I know what I have to do. I just won't do it. And that's a problem...
It's the little things that make a big difference.
In case you hadn't noticed...4-letter words:
love - hate - true - life
"And there are voices
That want to be heard
So much to mention
But you can't find the words"
--Listen to Your Heart, DHT
I can't erase myself, but I can try to move on.
In case you hadn't noticed...4-letter words:
love - hate - true - life
"And there are voices
That want to be heard
So much to mention
But you can't find the words"
--Listen to Your Heart, DHT
I can't erase myself, but I can try to move on.
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Originally posted by Trapped@Jul 6 2004, 11:54 AM
I know what I have to do. I just won't do it. And that's a problem...
Well the only thing you can do and i know this is hard is pick yourself up, im in a situation at the moment where i cant do that either but it is the only way to break the barriers we put up around ourselves and other people and im trying my hardest to get over that.
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Originally posted by Trapped@Jul 6 2004, 02:46 PM
I know, but for some reason I don't want to think positively, or good things. It seems like I wanna stay in this position until it's worked out the/a way I want it worked out....SO, I seem to be staying here (in this position) until I change, and until then, things won't change, and ppl won't care or see me as anything, including myself.
Posted on Jul 6 2004, 02:54 PM
I know what I have to do. I just won't do it. And that's a problem...
How alike we are...I too know exactly what I should be doing but I choose not to, just because. Usually it depends on my mood. Arg...I always avoid things because sometimes I want to succeed, when I see everyone else doing so, and sometimes, when I'm not busy jealous of everyone else, I feel like I wanna just fail...and so I sit and do nothing.
And in the end, it always comes back to haunt me.
I'm planning on making a schedule for myself, a daily one, so I make sure I don't ignore my responsibilities.
My tears will be hidden behind this fake grin
You can see me through these metal bars-I won't let you in
It's my life and I screwed it-You're not to blame
And though I keep on trying, it's so hard to change.
-Steph
My email- [email=""]steph_w_3000@hotmail.com[/email]
Email me if you wanna talk!
You can see me through these metal bars-I won't let you in
It's my life and I screwed it-You're not to blame
And though I keep on trying, it's so hard to change.
-Steph
My email- [email=""]steph_w_3000@hotmail.com[/email]
Email me if you wanna talk!