This is just on my mind..........I would tell someone, but it doesn't seem like anyone wants to listen or answer back..........so I'm just saying fuck it....Maybe if I post what I'm feelin on here, SOMEONE will get back to me or respond....
If anyone has read some of my more recent posts, you'll know that I've isolated myelf for a while (my entire life), so I don't really have any experience with guys or relationships (including friendships)<<not real ones anyway. I have a few now, but I'm just now startin to crawl out of my little hole, and see the sunlight of the world, and that ppl aren't anything to be afraid ofthey're just like you...
As for guys....If I could play "I Never" (game with drinks where you drink if you have done and explain your incidence...whatever it is...and u don't if you've never done it), I'd be watching everyone else pass out b/c I'd be as sober as ever...
I've never:
1. "really" hugged a guy (like tight where they actually don't want to let go, and you don't either)
2. kissed a guy--at all
3. made-out
4. ^ or anything beyond
5. no boyfriend
6. never been w/ a guy that even liked me and I knew it at least...haha
7. Just lazied around with a guy
8. hung out with
and now.............I'm 15, and I just want to do some of those things. If not 2-6, at least 1, 7, and 8. I dunno what is it with me, but I just really want a guy best friend (like not only, but it just seems it would be nice to have a guy best friend)--ya know. some1 older (slightly), been through some of what you're goin through, experienced with opposite sex (a lil bit), and could tell you anything, and you the same. You're best friends (know what I'm sayin....I've seen ppl that close, and it just looks soo..........well..............they've got each other if no one else........and all that comes with a best friendship....it'd be nice to just go walkin with a guy, find a quiet outdoor place, where you could just rest on his chest or stomach and talk...
Omg! what I am sayin.............that's not only a best friend.......that's a boyfriend. That's what I want.......I'm describin a boyfriend (who is your best friend--if y'all are really good for each other). Omg.......I can't believe I was so stupid.....hmm.....well........what to do now............I'm not really tryin.......... cuz I realized that u don't have to strive to look like other ppl. Where I work, I say tons of couplesall dif. kinds......and they're all dif. You don't have to look like some1 else just so a certain guy will come up to you. Your kind of guy will come when the time is right.
I don't even know how to flirt w/ guys right..........or if I do, I don't even know I'm doin it....(**eek**)
**long sigh** hmm..........what to do. what to do.?
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It's the little things that make a big difference.
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So much to mention
But you can't find the words"
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It's kinda bad though...........cuz I want a guy so badly...........I don't mind when guys call out at me, and I'm startin to just want to make out w/ neone who gives me the time of day (but I haven't.............cuz no1 does.........plus I dunno how^^^(all written above) [don't know how to do any of those numbers] *ahahaha*
You know like when girls want guys to stop messin w/ them. Like pickin them up (like on their backs), hittin them, (and these guys look good and are smart and all...)? well I praise that (when it ever happens), but I have to say no b/c ppl'll think I'm weird for wantin guys to annoy me?? I just don't get attention from them....And soo may ppl tell me I'm pretty......I constantly deny it, but if that's true, then why can't I get any attention from guys other than the freaks/geeks (all touchy feely, and get's on my nerves...........and wants to help w/ EVERYTHING when u don't need it cuz you're tryin to do it or figure it out on your own)
I dunno. I"m sry for confusin y'all.
You know like when girls want guys to stop messin w/ them. Like pickin them up (like on their backs), hittin them, (and these guys look good and are smart and all...)? well I praise that (when it ever happens), but I have to say no b/c ppl'll think I'm weird for wantin guys to annoy me?? I just don't get attention from them....And soo may ppl tell me I'm pretty......I constantly deny it, but if that's true, then why can't I get any attention from guys other than the freaks/geeks (all touchy feely, and get's on my nerves...........and wants to help w/ EVERYTHING when u don't need it cuz you're tryin to do it or figure it out on your own)
I dunno. I"m sry for confusin y'all.
It's the little things that make a big difference.
In case you hadn't noticed...4-letter words:
love - hate - true - life
"And there are voices
That want to be heard
So much to mention
But you can't find the words"
--Listen to Your Heart, DHT
I can't erase myself, but I can try to move on.
In case you hadn't noticed...4-letter words:
love - hate - true - life
"And there are voices
That want to be heard
So much to mention
But you can't find the words"
--Listen to Your Heart, DHT
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Call him an say what? I have no idea what to talk to a guy I like about.........and plus, it's not like they'd want to talk to me anyway....
It's the little things that make a big difference.
In case you hadn't noticed...4-letter words:
love - hate - true - life
"And there are voices
That want to be heard
So much to mention
But you can't find the words"
--Listen to Your Heart, DHT
I can't erase myself, but I can try to move on.
In case you hadn't noticed...4-letter words:
love - hate - true - life
"And there are voices
That want to be heard
So much to mention
But you can't find the words"
--Listen to Your Heart, DHT
I can't erase myself, but I can try to move on.
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ask him about himself! what he likes to do...stuff like that. you might find that you have something in common with him!
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I'm not too far ahead of you chica, so don't feel like you're alone! I'm 17, if that makes you feel any better.
I've never really kissed a guy either. I kiss my friends all the time, but that doesn't really count. Haha. My problem is that I get really insecure about myself, and compare myself to other people too much. I'm always too fat, or ugly, and yadi yada. This attitude won't get you anywhere. Listen to the person who suggested that you take some initiative. Be cautious though. Be aware of your limits and where you stand. When you want something really bad, sometimes it's easy to get taken advantage of. You're young. You should be having fun. I'm just starting to break out of some of my insecurities now, because I've found some guy friends that have really helped me out. They like me for who I am, and I'm totally comfortable around them.
Believe me chica, it's not impossible. You need to have a little faith in yourself before you can go and have faith in others.
Freaks and geeks aren't so bad. I'm best friends with two of them.
I've never really kissed a guy either. I kiss my friends all the time, but that doesn't really count. Haha. My problem is that I get really insecure about myself, and compare myself to other people too much. I'm always too fat, or ugly, and yadi yada. This attitude won't get you anywhere. Listen to the person who suggested that you take some initiative. Be cautious though. Be aware of your limits and where you stand. When you want something really bad, sometimes it's easy to get taken advantage of. You're young. You should be having fun. I'm just starting to break out of some of my insecurities now, because I've found some guy friends that have really helped me out. They like me for who I am, and I'm totally comfortable around them.
Believe me chica, it's not impossible. You need to have a little faith in yourself before you can go and have faith in others.
Freaks and geeks aren't so bad. I'm best friends with two of them.
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I've never gotten a number in my life!
Well, with friends of course. It's just funny, cause sometimes I'll tell a friend how I made a new guy friend and asked for his number, they get all "OooOh Jenn got a numberrrr" on me... But when I ask for a phone number, it's nothing like "asking for a number". It's nothing to get all oohy about.
I dont' know if that made sense. Lol.
I've never gotten a number though.
Do guys really slip people their numbers, like in the movies?
I think it'd be super cool if it happened to meee!
Well, with friends of course. It's just funny, cause sometimes I'll tell a friend how I made a new guy friend and asked for his number, they get all "OooOh Jenn got a numberrrr" on me... But when I ask for a phone number, it's nothing like "asking for a number". It's nothing to get all oohy about.
I dont' know if that made sense. Lol.
I've never gotten a number though.
Do guys really slip people their numbers, like in the movies?
I think it'd be super cool if it happened to meee!