Ok, so i think all of this started the day i started high school in august. i just dont think im ready to be a senior at all. im totally slacking off on my senior project, mainly because its just not working, everytime i write an article it wont send to the place and its never published. my portfolio has gone to hell because my homeroom teacher/mentor is on leave and she has the papers i need.
on top of that my mom is getting to me. if its not her, its my sister. my mom yells at me because the mirror was broken and accused me of it. then my sister starts on me about the same thing. my sister has my grandfather mad at me because shes leading a double life (she fine at home, but when shes with friends shes a different person) and i told her that to her face. she egged me on and i got pissed. my pap is mad because of "how i acted" and "wants to have a talk with me"... so that means i wont be seeing my pap any time soon because i dont want him to hate me for blowing up on him. then my mom wakes up yesterday and was on this war path. everything was my fault. and then, as i was online, filling out an application for my boyfriend, my sister tells me to get offline. ok whatever, i do. then my mom hooks up (we have dial up, only one comp online at a time). I told her what we were doing and she was like, "oh well". How effing insensitive can a person get? Then she went on and on about how it doesnt take an hour to fill out an application and that if im going to keep up my "attitude" my boyfriend could leave and i could go to my room. immature. we ended up watching a movie and i like to have the lights off when i do that. we fell asleep and god forbid, he was 10 minutes late leaveing, and she flipped on me again.
Today was another story. my sister got cocky with me because my friend wanted to see our new puppy but she was at the park with him. got cocky and was like, "well imat the park with heratio." and wouldnt let us come out to see him. i get home and my mom flips on me because i gave her wrong change for the stamps she had me buy. i gave her a dollar to clear it up and i told her i wasnt perfect. she went off again. last family part of the post, i asked if we could watch a movie in my room, we being my boyfriend and me. she flipped, so it ticked me off, mainly because she was mad i had no lights on the night before. jesus! so i flipped, saying its not like we were having sex.
im just depressed i think thats what it is. im so stressed that its got me down.
and to top it off i got a voice mail at 11.
my friend called me, saying that someone told her im talking about her at lunch, saying that her boyfriend is ugly and that they arent going to last because they fight all the time. i dont even talk at lunch!! i got online and told her that id never do that, and normally true friends check the facts before accusing someone. but no, she said she believes the person who told her. big suprise there. im loosing friends to high school drama all the effing time. its just really getting to me. its this whole circle of friends and its really pissing me off. tonight i though i was going to do something stupid, but i didnt.
im at the end of my line and everytime i go to guidance no ones there.
and my manager has me scheduled for everyday this week except thursday.
im so stressed
i dont know what to do.
someone please help. :'(
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Hey Michelle, my door is open if you want to talk. I may be at work or school a lot this week but leave me a message and I'll DEFINATELY get back to you ASAP.
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Hey Ewoyn,
I know exactly how you feel. Im not involved with high school drama but I do remember it all to well, and a lot of the time it made me sick to my stomach. Not to mention problems at home, with my mother. I still have problems. One thing I learned though is that if you tend to do the right thing, problems disappear. So I'm going to give you examples of what I did and still do to deal with the stuff.
1. When it comes to your mom - if I were you, ignore her. It doesn't necessarily seem like shes really a 100% pissed off at you. When parents are upset with you they tend to get "disappointed" because they know that that's what hurts us the most - Atleast it does for me. When parents yell and scream, it's them venting, because unfortunately they are human too, and need to get it out. So if shes screaming at you for stupid shit. Just turn her off. Dont fight back, because that's what they want, more fuel for their fire to consume. But say your mom yelled at you for giving the wrong change with the stamps, I'd just be like, okay. Sorry, heres the right change walk away. Watch TV, she keeps yelling. You don't answer. If she gets to close to your face, separate yourself. Dont let her get to you. Eventually whatever is truly bother her will subside, and youll come out smelling like a rose because she wont have anything to yell at you about. Trying to talk to her is going to be bad, because she needs that spark to get her going. You cant talk to anyone that is really pissed off about nothing, you just let them burn - until they burn out.
2. Sibling rivalry - it sounds like your sister is younger than you, and i have a younger sister too. And like three-four years ago, we used to fight. Once again, I think its best if you just give her - her own space. Sounds like she preteen, which means shes getting into the whole teenage angst where she doesnt have to listen to anyone! So give her - her space, eventually she'll come to you for advice, and when u welcome her, she'll stop acting like such a bitch. However, you do gotta put your foot down every know and then. What happened to me and my sister four years ago (and she actually just reminded me of it), we got into a big fight over nothing, and it turned into a fist fight. I held back ofcourse but I did hurt her, and she did crack me in the face twice, we had a whole giant fight didnt talk for twenty minutes, then were crying in each others arms. Ever since then, we have been so close, telling each other just about everything (i tell her a lil more cause im a more open person than she is). The whole fight was about drugs, because she was becoming a major pothead. I tried to step in but I think I was wrong. She needed to fall, and she did she got caught, and she looked for me for help, and I helped her.
3. high School drama - I wouldn't confront your friend, but rather confront her boyfriend. Even though both Guys and Girls hate drama, theres something with Girls and how they always attract drama. If you went to your friend personally, she might snap on you or tell you something someone else did or tell u the source of the false accusations on you, which leads to more drama. Guys tend to be the mediators in my experiences, and if they cant do it - then it just cant be done. Tell your friends boyfriend that your sorry all this is happening and you want to end it. If your truthful with him, he might go back and tell your friend, and who is your friend going to trust some source, or her boyfriend? either way, your in senior year of highschool - college is on the way, and when you get to college youll make new friends, and when you remeet old friends all is miraculously mended.
4. Finally, when your stressed, if your boyfriend truly loves you, vent a lil on him (not yell at him but just tell him how you feel), tell him you want to vent out and explain whats all going on and then look for him for comfort. I prefer girls to come up to me and tell me whats wrong, it makes me feel like im a source of their comfort, and Id do anything for a girl introuble when i know i make them comfortable. it might strengthen your relationship.
I know exactly how you feel. Im not involved with high school drama but I do remember it all to well, and a lot of the time it made me sick to my stomach. Not to mention problems at home, with my mother. I still have problems. One thing I learned though is that if you tend to do the right thing, problems disappear. So I'm going to give you examples of what I did and still do to deal with the stuff.
1. When it comes to your mom - if I were you, ignore her. It doesn't necessarily seem like shes really a 100% pissed off at you. When parents are upset with you they tend to get "disappointed" because they know that that's what hurts us the most - Atleast it does for me. When parents yell and scream, it's them venting, because unfortunately they are human too, and need to get it out. So if shes screaming at you for stupid shit. Just turn her off. Dont fight back, because that's what they want, more fuel for their fire to consume. But say your mom yelled at you for giving the wrong change with the stamps, I'd just be like, okay. Sorry, heres the right change walk away. Watch TV, she keeps yelling. You don't answer. If she gets to close to your face, separate yourself. Dont let her get to you. Eventually whatever is truly bother her will subside, and youll come out smelling like a rose because she wont have anything to yell at you about. Trying to talk to her is going to be bad, because she needs that spark to get her going. You cant talk to anyone that is really pissed off about nothing, you just let them burn - until they burn out.
2. Sibling rivalry - it sounds like your sister is younger than you, and i have a younger sister too. And like three-four years ago, we used to fight. Once again, I think its best if you just give her - her own space. Sounds like she preteen, which means shes getting into the whole teenage angst where she doesnt have to listen to anyone! So give her - her space, eventually she'll come to you for advice, and when u welcome her, she'll stop acting like such a bitch. However, you do gotta put your foot down every know and then. What happened to me and my sister four years ago (and she actually just reminded me of it), we got into a big fight over nothing, and it turned into a fist fight. I held back ofcourse but I did hurt her, and she did crack me in the face twice, we had a whole giant fight didnt talk for twenty minutes, then were crying in each others arms. Ever since then, we have been so close, telling each other just about everything (i tell her a lil more cause im a more open person than she is). The whole fight was about drugs, because she was becoming a major pothead. I tried to step in but I think I was wrong. She needed to fall, and she did she got caught, and she looked for me for help, and I helped her.
3. high School drama - I wouldn't confront your friend, but rather confront her boyfriend. Even though both Guys and Girls hate drama, theres something with Girls and how they always attract drama. If you went to your friend personally, she might snap on you or tell you something someone else did or tell u the source of the false accusations on you, which leads to more drama. Guys tend to be the mediators in my experiences, and if they cant do it - then it just cant be done. Tell your friends boyfriend that your sorry all this is happening and you want to end it. If your truthful with him, he might go back and tell your friend, and who is your friend going to trust some source, or her boyfriend? either way, your in senior year of highschool - college is on the way, and when you get to college youll make new friends, and when you remeet old friends all is miraculously mended.
4. Finally, when your stressed, if your boyfriend truly loves you, vent a lil on him (not yell at him but just tell him how you feel), tell him you want to vent out and explain whats all going on and then look for him for comfort. I prefer girls to come up to me and tell me whats wrong, it makes me feel like im a source of their comfort, and Id do anything for a girl introuble when i know i make them comfortable. it might strengthen your relationship.
Me: So do you like, HIM?
Rosca: No way, they suck. . .
Me: How can you say that, they're love METAL
Rosca: They ain't Metal!
Me: Well they probably get more women than we will ever in our lives combined
Rosca: Yea cause they're gay. . .
Rosca: No way, they suck. . .
Me: How can you say that, they're love METAL
Rosca: They ain't Metal!
Me: Well they probably get more women than we will ever in our lives combined
Rosca: Yea cause they're gay. . .
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all of that could work, except for the sister part. She's going to be 21 in two month. I'm 17.
Love is you
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8.6.05
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