I cant believe from me you were taken
it must be someone else, let them be mistaken!
I know i must go and see you one more time
the memories of us younger run thru my mind
playing and laughing, rain or snow
but now your somwhere where i may not go
we thought you were happy, and loved your life
you didn't let us in for all the pain and strife
why didn't we see all the signs you did give
I'd look again harder, as if it would make you live
I see you looking pretty, in a dress with long sleeve
now no one can notice the scars you would leave
now only memories of your last moments on earth
I continue to stare as your mom shares of your birth
the day that her baby girl was given life
to only sixteen years later take it away with a knife
so not only is it I that will be mourning you
but friends, family, and the community too
you were a part of me, and I can't seem to let you go
but into the ground you are burried as the final wind of your life will blow
R.I.P. Merri...I love you! 4*25*86~4*25*02
You were my best friend, my twin, my other half, I miss you so much, and I always will.
*~*Stefanie*~*
A Part Of Me
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xolilsk8rchicaxo
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I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
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fears0fs0rr0wnpain
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that was really awesome, honestly it was beautiful and i am really sorry for your loss, but she is in a much better place now and mostly likely your new guardian angel
We may never be as bright as the stars in the sky, but one day we should all realize, we can be the brightest stars on earth
One day i'll be where i want to be, looking down to see you there, to acknowldge all that you have given to me and i'll realize you're not really thereHAHAHAHA BOOOGADY BOOOGADY nanana boo
One day i'll be where i want to be, looking down to see you there, to acknowldge all that you have given to me and i'll realize you're not really thereHAHAHAHA BOOOGADY BOOOGADY nanana boo
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xolilsk8rchicaxo
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see i have a hard time believeing that...she's not in a better place...she's worse off now
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
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fears0fs0rr0wnpain
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honestly i never did believe there was anything worse then life on earth, hell is earth, but we can only suffer what we allow ourselves to, after death who really knows where we go or what happens, i know that if by chance she can look down upon you, it would feel like hell for her to watch you go through all the pain and turmoil you are putting yourself through, always leave your heart, mind, body, ears and eyes open, i believe there's a sign she may be trying to give you that you might be over looking, it's not easy to see through grief and tears, my mom used to tell me in certain circumtances expect the worse and hope for the best, in this case you need to believe she's where she should be and that she is always with you where ever it is we go when we die
We may never be as bright as the stars in the sky, but one day we should all realize, we can be the brightest stars on earth
One day i'll be where i want to be, looking down to see you there, to acknowldge all that you have given to me and i'll realize you're not really thereHAHAHAHA BOOOGADY BOOOGADY nanana boo
One day i'll be where i want to be, looking down to see you there, to acknowldge all that you have given to me and i'll realize you're not really thereHAHAHAHA BOOOGADY BOOOGADY nanana boo
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xolilsk8rchicaxo
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no i just believe that she took her life, and that's the ultimate sin, you can never get into heaven if you do that. it's a poor excuse for feeling sorry for yourself...i love merri to death, but i will never forgive her for what she did...she should have told someone, goten helpm anything...she may have been going thru pain about her parents, but she wasn't the only one...they were hurting too, and so was i...that was like my mom and dad, after my dad died i was there so much too...and to have they ripped apart liek that was breaking my heart, but killing yourself is not the answer...Merri did the most selfish thing...
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
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i am an atheist i believe there is something watching us yet i am not sure what it is. i dont believe in heaven or hell just another world you go to when you die.
Loves Chris with all my heart. without him i do not know where i would be. he is my savior and someday i hope to help him like he has helped me.
I love you chris.
I love you chris.
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xolilsk8rchicaxo
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i believe that you go to heaven when you die if you believe in GOD, but if you kill yourself that's a sin in itself so you can't repent, and it's automatic that you are sentenced to hell..but that's just what i think
*~*stefanie*~*
*~*stefanie*~*
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
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snsareformorons
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oh cruddy muffin.....i had a reply to this but i think i posted it under the wrong thing....hold on, the absent minded me must find it again!
Imagine:
To stand on top of the highest cliff.
To feel the wind tearing at my clothes, the elements.
Looking down into oblivion and voidness.
The ground far, far away as it seems from here, but in reality only a couple of seconds away.
Standing there.
Feeling a decision in a prefabricated existence.
To draw the final breath,
To make that little step,
To know, that for once a decision was made,
To feel one foot above the abyss,
To think for a split second you can float in the air
To feel losing balance,
To fall,
To feel the cold wind violently caress you,
To see the ground coming closer,
Then to doubt
To wish yourself back to the top of the peak
the one that you are pacing away from.
Only to perish, knowing you cannot turn back
To stand on top of the highest cliff.
To feel the wind tearing at my clothes, the elements.
Looking down into oblivion and voidness.
The ground far, far away as it seems from here, but in reality only a couple of seconds away.
Standing there.
Feeling a decision in a prefabricated existence.
To draw the final breath,
To make that little step,
To know, that for once a decision was made,
To feel one foot above the abyss,
To think for a split second you can float in the air
To feel losing balance,
To fall,
To feel the cold wind violently caress you,
To see the ground coming closer,
Then to doubt
To wish yourself back to the top of the peak
the one that you are pacing away from.
Only to perish, knowing you cannot turn back
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snsareformorons
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Here we go.....
I believe this:
You are heaven. Maybe you dont realize it just yet, but if you think about it you are a tiny piece of heaven and all the things you love, all the people you love are held inside of you. Your memories of them, even a simple hello are all kept in you. To me, that is heaven. To me, we are all heaven. So death isnt someone leaving you, they never left you in the first place. They were always there; always inside of you.
I am agnostic, but I believe in fate....if I could I would believe in God because it use to be so comforting when I was little thinking there was an afterlife and angels and stuff....now its harder, but this really comforted me in a time of need.
I believe this:
You are heaven. Maybe you dont realize it just yet, but if you think about it you are a tiny piece of heaven and all the things you love, all the people you love are held inside of you. Your memories of them, even a simple hello are all kept in you. To me, that is heaven. To me, we are all heaven. So death isnt someone leaving you, they never left you in the first place. They were always there; always inside of you.
I am agnostic, but I believe in fate....if I could I would believe in God because it use to be so comforting when I was little thinking there was an afterlife and angels and stuff....now its harder, but this really comforted me in a time of need.
Imagine:
To stand on top of the highest cliff.
To feel the wind tearing at my clothes, the elements.
Looking down into oblivion and voidness.
The ground far, far away as it seems from here, but in reality only a couple of seconds away.
Standing there.
Feeling a decision in a prefabricated existence.
To draw the final breath,
To make that little step,
To know, that for once a decision was made,
To feel one foot above the abyss,
To think for a split second you can float in the air
To feel losing balance,
To fall,
To feel the cold wind violently caress you,
To see the ground coming closer,
Then to doubt
To wish yourself back to the top of the peak
the one that you are pacing away from.
Only to perish, knowing you cannot turn back
To stand on top of the highest cliff.
To feel the wind tearing at my clothes, the elements.
Looking down into oblivion and voidness.
The ground far, far away as it seems from here, but in reality only a couple of seconds away.
Standing there.
Feeling a decision in a prefabricated existence.
To draw the final breath,
To make that little step,
To know, that for once a decision was made,
To feel one foot above the abyss,
To think for a split second you can float in the air
To feel losing balance,
To fall,
To feel the cold wind violently caress you,
To see the ground coming closer,
Then to doubt
To wish yourself back to the top of the peak
the one that you are pacing away from.
Only to perish, knowing you cannot turn back
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makaalohilohi
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she obviously thought she'd go somewhere better. i think she's right. now she can take care of all her buddies like she always wanted.
makaalohilohi
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xolilsk8rchicaxo
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i dunno..but like at first i was soo madd at her..i wished she would have just told someone
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
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snsareformorons
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its always hard in that situation, especially when you think that something could have been done, but just know that as sad and awful as it is you are a good person who cares and you think about her, and just know that it hurts to lose someone but it makes you better able to help other people going through it and you know how it feels to lose someone like that and its all a cycle, like this movie i saw last night called Pay it Forward, it all comes back. though i prolly made no sense, sorry.
Imagine:
To stand on top of the highest cliff.
To feel the wind tearing at my clothes, the elements.
Looking down into oblivion and voidness.
The ground far, far away as it seems from here, but in reality only a couple of seconds away.
Standing there.
Feeling a decision in a prefabricated existence.
To draw the final breath,
To make that little step,
To know, that for once a decision was made,
To feel one foot above the abyss,
To think for a split second you can float in the air
To feel losing balance,
To fall,
To feel the cold wind violently caress you,
To see the ground coming closer,
Then to doubt
To wish yourself back to the top of the peak
the one that you are pacing away from.
Only to perish, knowing you cannot turn back
To stand on top of the highest cliff.
To feel the wind tearing at my clothes, the elements.
Looking down into oblivion and voidness.
The ground far, far away as it seems from here, but in reality only a couple of seconds away.
Standing there.
Feeling a decision in a prefabricated existence.
To draw the final breath,
To make that little step,
To know, that for once a decision was made,
To feel one foot above the abyss,
To think for a split second you can float in the air
To feel losing balance,
To fall,
To feel the cold wind violently caress you,
To see the ground coming closer,
Then to doubt
To wish yourself back to the top of the peak
the one that you are pacing away from.
Only to perish, knowing you cannot turn back