I'm screaming inside, but
it's nearly September
and the fears of my past blend with Autumn foliage.
This time last year
death walked in on the family dinner
an unwanted houseguest who,
on his departue some months later
left us heart-wrenching souveniers of his journeys.
My dreams are haunted by the click of a 35 mm camera
and the painful man behind the lens.
I knew him once.
Before I was robbed of my innocence by a band of over-excited teenagers.
My memories of him fade into dreams
until I can't tell the two worlds apart.
Sometimes I think this has all been a dream.
That I'll wake up in a blink,
wiping the sleep from my 5-year-old eyes.
I was 6 when the waves started crashing
7 when the wind picked up
8 when the clouds started gathering
9 when the thunder first rumbled
10 when the lightening struck
11 when the rain began pouring
12 when the fire raged
13 when the sirens wailed.
and now, at almost 14
I've found the eye of the storm.
Behind me is family disasters
closets so full of skeletons that the bones spill into childhood bedrooms.
Ahead is the painful mysterious strangers
who gravitate to the constellations like children to comforting arms.
My throat is raw from not speaking,
mind numb from too much intellect.
I hang our pictures one after the other
portraits of 2 smiling siblings
his arm around me, beaming ear to ear.
at age 6, he was a grinning 13 year old, carefree and love.
at age 13, a 21 year old with a heart of gold
and mind of steel.
but something changed in those
7 years.
something in our eyes was wiser
our smiles more wary, our hearts a bit less light.
and yet we still had the spark in our hearts.
being addicted is better than being nothing at all.
Another New One
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Re: Another New One
wow...that is a powerful piece of work. i am speechless...it reminds me somewhat of how i feel
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Re: Another New One
WOW!!! that was.......WOW! AWESOME!!
I'm a poor wayfaring stranger
While traveling thru this world of woe
Yet there's no sickness, toil, or danger
In that bright world to which I go
I'm going there to see my Father
I'm going there no more to roam
I'm only going over Jordan
I'm only going over home
I know dark clouds will hang 'round me,
I know my way is rough and steep
Yet beauteous fields lie just before me
Where God's redeemed their virgils keep
I'm going there to see my mother
She said she'd meet me when I come
I'm only going over Jordan
I'm only going over home
~?~My?Photobucket~?~
While traveling thru this world of woe
Yet there's no sickness, toil, or danger
In that bright world to which I go
I'm going there to see my Father
I'm going there no more to roam
I'm only going over Jordan
I'm only going over home
I know dark clouds will hang 'round me,
I know my way is rough and steep
Yet beauteous fields lie just before me
Where God's redeemed their virgils keep
I'm going there to see my mother
She said she'd meet me when I come
I'm only going over Jordan
I'm only going over home
~?~My?Photobucket~?~