I can still remember how scared yet safe I felt with him. The way he looked at me took my breath away. I was standing in the kitchen with my back to him. I could hear him breathing, the way he did when he was mad. I had upset him again, stupid me I thought. I glanced down at the broken glass on the floor, he noticed.
"You know I hate to act like this." He said in a roug voice.
I nodded my head and looked back out the window. He walked towards me, I shived as each foot touched the ground. I jumped when he wrapped his arms tightly around me and kissed my neck.
"Don't do this." I whispered.
He continued to kiss my neck. He paused at my ear and whispered "I need you."
The tears ran down my face as he pulled me towards his bedroom.
"Please" I managed to whisper.
He turned around fast and paused me againt the wall.
"YOU WANT THIS" He yelled into my face.
"Don't you?" He whispered
"Please...I just want to go home." I begged
"You will baby doll, your going to Hell tonight." He said with a smile as he pulled his knife out of his back pocket
"Please dont, please." I screamed
He just smiled.
"I loved you bitch!" He yelled and threw me on the bed and robbed of my purity.
After we laid there together. I rolled on to my side with my back to him.
"What's the matter?" He whispered into my ear as he wraped his arms around me.
"What's it good for you?" He asked and kissed my neck
I didn't answer him. I was screaming so loud that my voice hurt.
He slowly moved his hands under the blanket and down my side.
I began to cry again.
"Don't" I barely whispered.
"I can't hear you." He sneered
He continued to move his down down my side to my leg. I began to shake at the thought of what just happened.
Please don't let him do this to me again I silently prayed.
"You know I love you, right?" He asked
I looked at him this time trying to hold back my tears.
"I know" I whispered and allowed the tears to softly roll down my face.
"I'm sorry." He whispered and broke down crying.
I laid there at first..not knowing what to say. Or what to do.
Finally I sat up and touched his arm.
"Don't touch me!" He screaming and pushed me off the bed.
I fell to the floor and laid there like a scared puppy.
"I hate you!" He screamed and came towards me.
I backed into the corner and closed me eyes. I waited for him to hit me...I waited and waited but he didn't.
I slowly looked up and he was standing infront of me. Looking at me.
"Your beautiful." He said amazed.
I covered my face with my hands.
He bent down next to me and held my head in his hands.
"I don't want to be like this" He admitted and and took my hands away from my face.
"I love you." I stared into his dark green eyes.
"You do not!" He yelled and pushed me.
"I do, please believe me! I do I love you so much!" I yelled.
"Your gonna tell on me." He said like a scared school boy.
"No, no." I said shaking my head.
He smiled.
"Thats right." He said. "If you do, you die!"
"I won't." I promised
He looked at me and shook his head.
"How can you love me?" He asked "I just raped you, I RAPED YOU! I beat you I threaten you."
"I love you. Thats all that matters." I said standing up.
He nodded his head.
"I'm sorry." He said again and began to cry.
I wrapped my arms around him and he cried on my shoulder.
"Whats wrong with me?" He finally asked.
"Don't worry, I'm going to get you help. Your going to be okay. We are going to get married and have babies and a dog in a nice house." I assured him.
He nodded and then pulled away from me.
"Here" He said handing me my pants.
"Thanks." I said and put them on as he put on the rest of this cloths.
"I'll take you home." He said.
We walked out to his truck and he helped me in. He kissed my forehead before shuting the door.
He climbed in the driver's side and started the truck.
We silently drove the 15 minutes to my house.
We stopped infront of my house and I looked at him. He slowly looked at me and then kissed me.
"I love you." He said and kissed me again.
"I love you too." I said and began to cry.
He held me till I stopped crying then looked me in the eyes.
"Remember, don't tell, because I meant what I said." He said looking down.
"Do and I die." I whispered back.
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Though he took all she had and then he made it his
No matter what she does inside it feels the same
But she knows she's learnt to play a different game
And though it hurts her, she can feel the change inside
She's slowly learning that she's got nothing to hide
For every chance she's lost, she's tired of blaming you
Time to start a new life, time to start new
2/9....I love Christoper
No matter what she does inside it feels the same
But she knows she's learnt to play a different game
And though it hurts her, she can feel the change inside
She's slowly learning that she's got nothing to hide
For every chance she's lost, she's tired of blaming you
Time to start a new life, time to start new
2/9....I love Christoper
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Re: Story
hey, is that story all true? if it is, please get out of that relationship! you can't forgive him that easily! please try and get both of you help..it seems he needs it too!
i know what i feel, but i'm afraid to show it, inside, so real, no one else could know it, the whole truth and no lies, cutting deeper i can hear my soul cry, come on testify.
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Very sad that you had to go through something so tragic. But you do not have to deal with this. If he truly loved you who would not have donet his to you! He knows what he did was totally wrong. He needs HELP! Get him help and then get out. You shouldn't be dealing with this. There are guys out there that would love you and truly mean it. There are guys out there that would care for you and take care of you like he is supposed too..not abuse/rape you! GET HELP! TELL!!!!
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Before I met you I never knew what it was like to just look at someone and smile for no reason.
I wanna be remembered as the girl who always smiles, even when her heart is broken and the one who could always brighten up your day even if she couldn't brighten up her own.
I wanna be remembered as the girl who always smiles, even when her heart is broken and the one who could always brighten up your day even if she couldn't brighten up her own.