If you can't tell...i'm a tad mad at my family...but when aren't I...so I decided to just calm down for once and write out my feelings...I feel better now...
My palms
are
sweaty
my
little heart
throbs,
maybe this
time, I've
done
the job.
My breath
is getting
short
as tears roll
down my
cheeks,
Thank God!
This is working,
I've only been
planning it
for weeks.
The pills went
down
never came
back up,
drank all the
Vodka
that was in
that
cup.
My vision
is getting blurry
Dizzy I
become,
my body
suddenly feels
like it
weighs a
ton.
No one is
home
and I am on
the floor,
luckily
I locked and
chained
the door.
Even if I
would
dial 911
they couldn't
save me
now,
I'm already
to far
gone.
I just pray
my parents
understand
the reasons why
I took my
life,
without a
sound.
I ask God to
watch
over them
as I journey
down to
Hell,
and wish he'd
protect them
greater
and my story
the will tell.
I hope the
world
hears my story
that I was
verbally
abused,
and everyone
was lazy,
I felt like I was
used.
I don't know why
I cry,
as I lay here,
ready for
death.
For my family
put on a
show
these 15 years
and acted
all their
best.
Yet, I put forth
the better
effort
the fools that
they've become...
I acted as well...
they didn't see
the screw up
I'd become.
Hopefully they
do now
as they lower me
into the
ground
and say their
final
fairwells.
I lay here
in Hell
and the story
they
tell, are all
lies,
piled over
the truth.
I'll haunt them
at night
and all day to
for they
will never sleep
again,
until I finally do.
I'll haunt them
until they
tell the truth,
the truth
of their daughter
their acting
their pool
of lies.
Maybe then,
I'll rest
and be at
eternal ease,
but not until
everyone
of their
lives is
seized...
in death...
like me.
Vengence In Death
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Love is you
........ You and me
...............Love is knowing
...............................we can be
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.oO sHeLlY Oo.
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thanks
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don't know y i wrote this-but i love it...lol
Love is you
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i don't like my family much either. it's good. keep writing.
keEP on keepING on--
livejournal add me to your friend list *if you wish...
(cause i need you now more than ever before)
-->love the ones you got<--
" i watched the one i love leave me to love someone else, right in front of me, without saying a word. that, is what i consider the worst kind of love. "
livejournal add me to your friend list *if you wish...
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-->love the ones you got<--
" i watched the one i love leave me to love someone else, right in front of me, without saying a word. that, is what i consider the worst kind of love. "
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thnx
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The pills went
down
never came
back up,
drank all the
Vodka
that was in
that
cup.
:'( :'( :'(
down
never came
back up,
drank all the
Vodka
that was in
that
cup.
:'( :'( :'(
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thnx 4 the replies guys
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