Yea so a lot of you seem to know what happened with my problem. Well the other day he imed me out of the blue and asked me out on a date. I told him I would. But yesterday I wrote him a long e-mail saying that I couldn't. I later got a reply and he wrote back saying that it was ok and if thats how I feel. In the letter I kind of told him a lie. I told him that if I were to go out on a date with him that I wouldn't be able to control my feelings. He replyed back with nor could I. But thats not how it is. I wanted to go out on the date with him. I thought I had major feelings for him. But as we were talking on aim he sent me over a picture. When I saw his picture I got goosebumps and all the pain I felt for him in the past came back. So I told him I couldn't hook up with him. He still wants to talk to me but I really don't feel like talking to him. I have a screen name that he knows but I only use it for people I don't want them to know my other one.
So should I just not talk to him again? Or do I owe him a reson why I can't? I want to get over him so bad. But I know he'll always be their. Like I had a dream where I'm at a bar with my boyfriend and h e go's to get a drink. Then we'll call him Matt. Matt comes up from behind and I turn around and say theirs my boy. Then my boy friend comes back and gets jealous breaks up with me right their and then. I cry my eyes out and Matt takes me back to his house and takes advantage of me. So thats another reason I'm scared to talk to him.
I wish I could tell all my friends what I'm telling you guys. They know all what happened. But if they were to find out that we talked or whatever they would get so mad at me. Well thanks for letting me get this off my chest it helped a lot.
I wish I could have an almost normal life.
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Well the other day he imed me out of the blue and asked me out on a date.
This is the same guy who hurt you TWICE isn't it?
Just wanted to make sure before I give you my opinions and advice....
~ Tell me all your problems & I'll try my best to kiss them all away ~
Now here you go again, you say you want your freedom
Well who am I to keep you down
It's only right that you should play the way you feel it
But listen carefully to the sound
Of your loneliness
Like a heartbeat drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering what you had
And what you lost
Well It's only me that wants to wrap around your dreams
I love you...
Now here you go again, you say you want your freedom
Well who am I to keep you down
It's only right that you should play the way you feel it
But listen carefully to the sound
Of your loneliness
Like a heartbeat drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering what you had
And what you lost
Well It's only me that wants to wrap around your dreams
I love you...
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Yes it is......
My nick name is Oscar, Oscar the Grouch!!!
Don't hate me because I'm different. Hate yourself for not accepting me.
You laugh because I'm different. I laugh because your all the same.
If you don't like me thats your problem!
Unseen They Suffer
Unheard They Cry
In Agony They Linger
In Loneliness They Die! Stand up for the animals. Help fight for their right!!
Don't hate me because I'm different. Hate yourself for not accepting me.
You laugh because I'm different. I laugh because your all the same.
If you don't like me thats your problem!
Unseen They Suffer
Unheard They Cry
In Agony They Linger
In Loneliness They Die! Stand up for the animals. Help fight for their right!!
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Originally posted by beyondyou64@Apr 24 2003, 11:59 PM
Yes it is......
Oh my god I'm so sorry I didn't know how blunt that question sounded.
Please do NOT take offense to anything in this post....and I may NOT be right but this is just my opinion.
In the letter I kind of told him a lie.
Why did you lie in the letter??
When I saw his picture I got goosebumps and all the pain I felt for him in the past came back
I am not surprised, I am so sorry darling, but he sounds like a MAJOR jerk. What he did to you was NASTY and CRUEL and no-one, especially you, deserved that treatment.
I really don't feel like talking to him.
I should hope so. I mean look what he did to you! All of the pain he brought...He didn't just hurt you ONCE he did it TWICE. I mean fair enough, once is a mistake...but twice? How can that be so?
Have you got a b/f btw?
I really do know how HARD it is to forget someone...to stop liking them no matter what they did to you. My ex boyfriend (Matty) he had sex with MY friend in MY house in MY bed...and I still went back to him. I just liked him so much I couldn't leave him...then he dumped me a week later and started making out with some girl in FRONT OF ME. I mean how cruel is that. :'(
That was back in February....on the 12th of this Month I got with someone else called David...but Matty kept asking me out and telling me he loved me...it made me cry. I wanted him but KNEW he was no good for me. So yeah I HAD to move on.
I figure that relationships are things to be learnt from...life is a lesson of mistakes I guess and you have to learn from them. I sure as hell learnt from my mistake of taking him back. Maybe this is your lesson you've got to learn?
I mean who is to say he won't hurt you AGAIN? I am so sorry to be blunt and straight to the point but I am just stating the obvious.
My HONEST opinion would be for you to BLOCK him, and get him out of your life completely. You said yourself you don't want to talk to him or go out with him. If you just lock him out of your life and DON'T let him bring you down. Stand up tall and get on with your life....like with your boyfriend (if you have one, I'm a bit confused here. lol)
That guy is a JERK and is NOT worth it....
But at the end of the day it is YOUR life, and only YOUR decision to make. I really hope you make the right one,
I wish you luck and hope darling,
~ Keli xxx
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Now here you go again, you say you want your freedom
Well who am I to keep you down
It's only right that you should play the way you feel it
But listen carefully to the sound
Of your loneliness
Like a heartbeat drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering what you had
And what you lost
Well It's only me that wants to wrap around your dreams
I love you...
Now here you go again, you say you want your freedom
Well who am I to keep you down
It's only right that you should play the way you feel it
But listen carefully to the sound
Of your loneliness
Like a heartbeat drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering what you had
And what you lost
Well It's only me that wants to wrap around your dreams
I love you...
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Keli and others-
You (all) are great. I wish I had you (guys) as a friend up here in OHIO. You always seem to know what to say. I look forward to your advice. Along with the other members.
I deleted and blocked him from my aim screen name. So I woundn't feel like later on in my life to talk to him.
That and I don't have a b/f. I wish I did tho. I have wanted one for a long time. I think that is another reason why I liked him so much. I knew he would be their but so would the pain.
Alright well hopefully now I will not have to worry about him. Unless he comes to my work. Hope that will never happen. But I wouldn't put it past him.
He hurt me in many ways. I've tryed to forget them. He made me lose my trust in people. I meet him in 8th grade. I wasn't truthful to any of my friends till up about a year ago. Their was a lot more the the trust issue. But that was one of my main big problems that I had after him. Along with some other bad habits that I'm not happy of. But I'm clean now. So I don;t have to worry about tho's right now.
But thanks for all of your support. I plan to move on with my life. I plan to make my next hard choice of where I'm going to college next year, moving out, and telling my parents I'm bi. But yea. Thanks again.
You (all) are great. I wish I had you (guys) as a friend up here in OHIO. You always seem to know what to say. I look forward to your advice. Along with the other members.
I deleted and blocked him from my aim screen name. So I woundn't feel like later on in my life to talk to him.
That and I don't have a b/f. I wish I did tho. I have wanted one for a long time. I think that is another reason why I liked him so much. I knew he would be their but so would the pain.
Alright well hopefully now I will not have to worry about him. Unless he comes to my work. Hope that will never happen. But I wouldn't put it past him.
He hurt me in many ways. I've tryed to forget them. He made me lose my trust in people. I meet him in 8th grade. I wasn't truthful to any of my friends till up about a year ago. Their was a lot more the the trust issue. But that was one of my main big problems that I had after him. Along with some other bad habits that I'm not happy of. But I'm clean now. So I don;t have to worry about tho's right now.
But thanks for all of your support. I plan to move on with my life. I plan to make my next hard choice of where I'm going to college next year, moving out, and telling my parents I'm bi. But yea. Thanks again.
My nick name is Oscar, Oscar the Grouch!!!
Don't hate me because I'm different. Hate yourself for not accepting me.
You laugh because I'm different. I laugh because your all the same.
If you don't like me thats your problem!
Unseen They Suffer
Unheard They Cry
In Agony They Linger
In Loneliness They Die! Stand up for the animals. Help fight for their right!!
Don't hate me because I'm different. Hate yourself for not accepting me.
You laugh because I'm different. I laugh because your all the same.
If you don't like me thats your problem!
Unseen They Suffer
Unheard They Cry
In Agony They Linger
In Loneliness They Die! Stand up for the animals. Help fight for their right!!