Real Life Feelings (Triggering)

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Real Life Feelings (Triggering)

Post by njh88_07 » Sat May 31, 2008 12:02 pm

Everyday my world spins round

I try not to even make a sound

about how I feel or what I consider to be real

my friends don't see that I want

This all to end I can't ever make my life right

So all I want now is to fuck myself up at night.

I need to punish myself because knowing all that is happening to me

is all my fault because I give in and let these things go

push them to the back of my mind where no one else goes

I want to escape with a gentle little slit

if I do it right no one will know

I can picture what I want see it in my mind

drawing me closer to my suicide.

Everyday I count my pills and try to think of ways that I can go through with this.

Everyday I fall a little further down into my dark hole

where I know my life will never hit that happy perfect.

I long to be free of this suffering I feel I don't know what is going on

Everythings so bad it's like I am already no longer me

When they look in my eyes they see the pain and hurt I have been through

I try to hide but someone always seems to get through I guess I can't fake it here where I am at but I can escape it

while behind this mask

wandering how long it will be before I completely break wandering how long it will be before they lay me in my grave.

I have no life no one to live for

All I have is the chance to escape a chance to be gone

lost with a sadness in my eyes

alone I will lay when my sadness allows me to finally die.
Our attitude towards life determines lifes attitude towards us.

-Earl Nighingale



I may have done some things that are wrong but hey who hasn't? I don't know anyone that is perfect. Do you?



People don't die from suicide they die from sadness.

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That which nourishes me also destroys me.

ANGELINA JOLIE -So true for me. I believe it.

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Re: Real Life Feelings (Triggering)

Post by Ingenuity » Sat May 31, 2008 2:53 pm

beautiful *sobs* I do hope you break through the bottom of that hole, or find a good friend for suport. My own pit has been closing in around me lately, so... yeah, perhaps why I'm having such an emotional reaction to this.
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Re: Real Life Feelings (Triggering)

Post by njh88_07 » Sun Jun 01, 2008 12:51 am

Things always seem bad for me I can't escape them unless I am wasted cutting or sleeping I am half drunk now yet I can still feel this fucking pain both physical and emotional. But tonight I am not only going to get wasted I plan on getting high. FUCK MY LIFE I WILL IGNORE IT NOW AND FOREVER! BUT I AM ALWAYS HERE IF U NEED TO TALK JUST PM ME!
Our attitude towards life determines lifes attitude towards us.

-Earl Nighingale



I may have done some things that are wrong but hey who hasn't? I don't know anyone that is perfect. Do you?



People don't die from suicide they die from sadness.

-ANONYMOUS





That which nourishes me also destroys me.

ANGELINA JOLIE -So true for me. I believe it.

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Re: Real Life Feelings (Triggering)

Post by secrets » Mon Aug 25, 2008 12:45 am

this poems sound like me... like a year ago. its totally me. make me feel sad that i know i was that far gone. i dont know how i ever came back to reality. but there are little pieces of me going back to that old life style

great poem... i loved it.

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Re: Real Life Feelings (Triggering)

Post by njh88_07 » Thu Aug 28, 2008 9:21 pm

Lately my life is spinning out of control. It's very hard for me to deal. I hate it. I just want it to go away. But I really appreciate the feedback thanks everyone! It makes me feel good that others can relate to my writing and how I feel!
Our attitude towards life determines lifes attitude towards us.

-Earl Nighingale



I may have done some things that are wrong but hey who hasn't? I don't know anyone that is perfect. Do you?



People don't die from suicide they die from sadness.

-ANONYMOUS





That which nourishes me also destroys me.

ANGELINA JOLIE -So true for me. I believe it.

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Re: Real Life Feelings (Triggering)

Post by anonymous08 » Mon Sep 01, 2008 4:37 am

*reading and caring*
You couldn't be suicidal if your life depended on it.



there i go again, pretending that i'll fall

don't call the doctors!

they've seen it all before

they'll say just let her crash and burn

she'll learn

the attention just encourages her.

- Dresden Dolls "Girl Anachronism"


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