Everyday my world spins round
I try not to even make a sound
about how I feel or what I consider to be real
my friends don't see that I want
This all to end I can't ever make my life right
So all I want now is to fuck myself up at night.
I need to punish myself because knowing all that is happening to me
is all my fault because I give in and let these things go
push them to the back of my mind where no one else goes
I want to escape with a gentle little slit
if I do it right no one will know
I can picture what I want see it in my mind
drawing me closer to my suicide.
Everyday I count my pills and try to think of ways that I can go through with this.
Everyday I fall a little further down into my dark hole
where I know my life will never hit that happy perfect.
I long to be free of this suffering I feel I don't know what is going on
Everythings so bad it's like I am already no longer me
When they look in my eyes they see the pain and hurt I have been through
I try to hide but someone always seems to get through I guess I can't fake it here where I am at but I can escape it
while behind this mask
wandering how long it will be before I completely break wandering how long it will be before they lay me in my grave.
I have no life no one to live for
All I have is the chance to escape a chance to be gone
lost with a sadness in my eyes
alone I will lay when my sadness allows me to finally die.
Real Life Feelings (Triggering)
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Real Life Feelings (Triggering)
Our attitude towards life determines lifes attitude towards us.
-Earl Nighingale
I may have done some things that are wrong but hey who hasn't? I don't know anyone that is perfect. Do you?
People don't die from suicide they die from sadness.
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That which nourishes me also destroys me.
ANGELINA JOLIE -So true for me. I believe it.
-Earl Nighingale
I may have done some things that are wrong but hey who hasn't? I don't know anyone that is perfect. Do you?
People don't die from suicide they die from sadness.
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That which nourishes me also destroys me.
ANGELINA JOLIE -So true for me. I believe it.
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Re: Real Life Feelings (Triggering)
beautiful *sobs* I do hope you break through the bottom of that hole, or find a good friend for suport. My own pit has been closing in around me lately, so... yeah, perhaps why I'm having such an emotional reaction to this.
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Re: Real Life Feelings (Triggering)
Things always seem bad for me I can't escape them unless I am wasted cutting or sleeping I am half drunk now yet I can still feel this fucking pain both physical and emotional. But tonight I am not only going to get wasted I plan on getting high. FUCK MY LIFE I WILL IGNORE IT NOW AND FOREVER! BUT I AM ALWAYS HERE IF U NEED TO TALK JUST PM ME!
Our attitude towards life determines lifes attitude towards us.
-Earl Nighingale
I may have done some things that are wrong but hey who hasn't? I don't know anyone that is perfect. Do you?
People don't die from suicide they die from sadness.
-ANONYMOUS
That which nourishes me also destroys me.
ANGELINA JOLIE -So true for me. I believe it.
-Earl Nighingale
I may have done some things that are wrong but hey who hasn't? I don't know anyone that is perfect. Do you?
People don't die from suicide they die from sadness.
-ANONYMOUS
That which nourishes me also destroys me.
ANGELINA JOLIE -So true for me. I believe it.
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this poems sound like me... like a year ago. its totally me. make me feel sad that i know i was that far gone. i dont know how i ever came back to reality. but there are little pieces of me going back to that old life style
great poem... i loved it.
great poem... i loved it.
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Lately my life is spinning out of control. It's very hard for me to deal. I hate it. I just want it to go away. But I really appreciate the feedback thanks everyone! It makes me feel good that others can relate to my writing and how I feel!
Our attitude towards life determines lifes attitude towards us.
-Earl Nighingale
I may have done some things that are wrong but hey who hasn't? I don't know anyone that is perfect. Do you?
People don't die from suicide they die from sadness.
-ANONYMOUS
That which nourishes me also destroys me.
ANGELINA JOLIE -So true for me. I believe it.
-Earl Nighingale
I may have done some things that are wrong but hey who hasn't? I don't know anyone that is perfect. Do you?
People don't die from suicide they die from sadness.
-ANONYMOUS
That which nourishes me also destroys me.
ANGELINA JOLIE -So true for me. I believe it.
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Re: Real Life Feelings (Triggering)
*reading and caring*
You couldn't be suicidal if your life depended on it.
there i go again, pretending that i'll fall
don't call the doctors!
they've seen it all before
they'll say just let her crash and burn
she'll learn
the attention just encourages her.
- Dresden Dolls "Girl Anachronism"
there i go again, pretending that i'll fall
don't call the doctors!
they've seen it all before
they'll say just let her crash and burn
she'll learn
the attention just encourages her.
- Dresden Dolls "Girl Anachronism"