The Story Of Carol Layman
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that story is incredible. thats all i'll say becky. i've read it many times, powerful, emotional, scary even. i still remember that day like it was yesterday. how do u do it? ur so strong!
To be nobody but yourself in a world thats doing its best to make you somebody
else is to fight the hardest battle you are ever going to fight. Never stop fighting.
You do anything long enough to escape the habit of living,
Until the escape becomes the habit.
Everything is ok in the end.
If its not, then its not the end.
else is to fight the hardest battle you are ever going to fight. Never stop fighting.
You do anything long enough to escape the habit of living,
Until the escape becomes the habit.
Everything is ok in the end.
If its not, then its not the end.
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you see, that's where you're wrong. strong is dealing with it like normal people. like jessica or lauren. missing her but staying happy. not cutting or gettting depressed and suicidal. i hate it when people tell me i'm strong because i'm not. i was strong enough to stay alive, nothing more.
i'm glad you love my story so much
i poured my heart and soul into it, and to have it so appreciated is an honor to both carol and i.
i'm glad you love my story so much
i poured my heart and soul into it, and to have it so appreciated is an honor to both carol and i.~*Becky*~
"If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." -C.S. Lewis
"If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." -C.S. Lewis
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becky, thats a reaction that most ppl had. hell i started cutting, thought about suicide. hell i cant stop cutting. becky, u stayed alive, n i give u a hell of a lot of credit for that after loosing ur best friend.
To be nobody but yourself in a world thats doing its best to make you somebody
else is to fight the hardest battle you are ever going to fight. Never stop fighting.
You do anything long enough to escape the habit of living,
Until the escape becomes the habit.
Everything is ok in the end.
If its not, then its not the end.
else is to fight the hardest battle you are ever going to fight. Never stop fighting.
You do anything long enough to escape the habit of living,
Until the escape becomes the habit.
Everything is ok in the end.
If its not, then its not the end.
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no that's a reaction very few people had. carol was close friends with many past cutters and the only ones who took it up again as far as i know are you me and sara. they are the strong ones not me. i cut and thought about suicide. that's not strength, that's selfishness because i know that tons of people care about me and i wanted to take myself away from them. that, to me, is the ultimate weakness- throwing way life because it gets too hard. but i wanted to do it for a long long time.
~*Becky*~
"If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." -C.S. Lewis
"If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." -C.S. Lewis
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ur strong, i know it. i'll just leave it at that. look how far u've come. becky, ur story means a lot to me. seeing first hand all the pain was hard enough, but then hearin the after math of it, make it sooo much more
To be nobody but yourself in a world thats doing its best to make you somebody
else is to fight the hardest battle you are ever going to fight. Never stop fighting.
You do anything long enough to escape the habit of living,
Until the escape becomes the habit.
Everything is ok in the end.
If its not, then its not the end.
else is to fight the hardest battle you are ever going to fight. Never stop fighting.
You do anything long enough to escape the habit of living,
Until the escape becomes the habit.
Everything is ok in the end.
If its not, then its not the end.
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moving this to Why Me? as it is about greiving
TJ[10:13 PM]: no not really..... it's all so.... like wow..... screw steps, you took a fuckin jet pack and strapped it on yourself and rocketed your way forward (thats my big bro)
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won't mean a thing
I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way
Meredith Brooks-Bitch
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won't mean a thing
I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way
Meredith Brooks-Bitch
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moving this to Why Me? as it is about greiving
well, i understand why this was moved, but the reason i posted it was for those who are suicidal to read it and think twice about it... it's not so much of a "why me?" as a "please read this story before you commit and think about how many people it will affect." i was wondering if maybe this could be moved back? i think it's more likely suicidal people will see it there than at the very back of the why me section. just a thought....
~*becky*~
~*Becky*~
"If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." -C.S. Lewis
"If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." -C.S. Lewis
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Re: The Story Of Carol Layman
Becky,
I have added this topic to a topic pinned in the suicide forum. I'll give the link:
Meaningful And Inspirational Words/topics:
http://www.helpingteens.org/groups/inde ... opic=44611
It will mean that this topic is still useful to those who use the suicide forum.
Take care.
Love, Lena.
I have added this topic to a topic pinned in the suicide forum. I'll give the link:
Meaningful And Inspirational Words/topics:
http://www.helpingteens.org/groups/inde ... opic=44611
It will mean that this topic is still useful to those who use the suicide forum.
Take care.
Love, Lena.
Woman can not live on tea or chocolate alone.... but she can give it a damn good try.
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Becky, Im so sorry if this reply is messed up, I cant even see very well right now, everything is blurry because of crying. That story hit so close to home. You know, and so do many of the other people on this site what im going through right now.....I know how you feel, and it hurt so bad and im so sorry about Carol sweetheart, I really am. It hurts.....I actually think im going to make a similar post on here......Thanks for the insperation.
-Molly
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Cause I am stricken and cant let you go ~Disturbed
The prettiest people do the ugliest things ~ K. West
Do you pull me up just to push me down again ~Mudvayne
And when Im gone just carry on, dont morn, rejoyce everytime you hear the sound of my voice just know that im lookin down on you smiling and i didnt feel a thing so baby dont feel my pain just smile back
The prettiest people do the ugliest things ~ K. West
Do you pull me up just to push me down again ~Mudvayne
And when Im gone just carry on, dont morn, rejoyce everytime you hear the sound of my voice just know that im lookin down on you smiling and i didnt feel a thing so baby dont feel my pain just smile back
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Originally posted by XTorn2PiecesLPX@Aug 4 2005, 01:21 AM
Becky, Im so sorry if this reply is messed up, I cant even see very well right now, everything is blurry because of crying. That story hit so close to home. You know, and so do many of the other people on this site what im going through right now.....I know how you feel, and it hurt so bad and im so sorry about Carol sweetheart, I really am. It hurts.....I actually think im going to make a similar post on here......Thanks for the insperation.
-Molly
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thanks sweetie
i'm sorry it made you cry (i hate doing that to people lol) i'm glad you liked it and that it inspired you. i love your story, and i'm prinitng out the original right now 
stay strong
~*Becky*~
"If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." -C.S. Lewis
"If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." -C.S. Lewis
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I just hope someone learns something from our stories and how suicide affects people......If I can save one person with my story, then im happy.
Cause I am stricken and cant let you go ~Disturbed
The prettiest people do the ugliest things ~ K. West
Do you pull me up just to push me down again ~Mudvayne
And when Im gone just carry on, dont morn, rejoyce everytime you hear the sound of my voice just know that im lookin down on you smiling and i didnt feel a thing so baby dont feel my pain just smile back
The prettiest people do the ugliest things ~ K. West
Do you pull me up just to push me down again ~Mudvayne
And when Im gone just carry on, dont morn, rejoyce everytime you hear the sound of my voice just know that im lookin down on you smiling and i didnt feel a thing so baby dont feel my pain just smile back
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yeah, same here. there's another site where i've posted it, and there's a few people who have told me it's changed their lives (they were prolly exaggerating, but it still made me feel special 
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)~*Becky*~
"If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." -C.S. Lewis
"If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." -C.S. Lewis
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lol your probably right. But hey, if it did help them then rock on!
Cause I am stricken and cant let you go ~Disturbed
The prettiest people do the ugliest things ~ K. West
Do you pull me up just to push me down again ~Mudvayne
And when Im gone just carry on, dont morn, rejoyce everytime you hear the sound of my voice just know that im lookin down on you smiling and i didnt feel a thing so baby dont feel my pain just smile back
The prettiest people do the ugliest things ~ K. West
Do you pull me up just to push me down again ~Mudvayne
And when Im gone just carry on, dont morn, rejoyce everytime you hear the sound of my voice just know that im lookin down on you smiling and i didnt feel a thing so baby dont feel my pain just smile back
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I think any stories like this are capable of changing lives. They certainly put things in perspective for me when I was feeling that bad. Just my thoughts....
Take care,
Lena.
Take care,
Lena.
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Originally posted by Lena@Aug 5 2005, 05:56 PM
I think any stories like this are capable of changing lives. They certainly put things in perspective for me when I was feeling that bad. Just my thoughts....
Take care,
Lena.
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aww thanks ^^ well... sorta... thanks really isn't the right word... lol
but i'm glad it's helped you anyway *hugs*
~*Becky*~
"If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." -C.S. Lewis
"If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." -C.S. Lewis