The following excerpt is directly from my diary...
Lack of anything else to do led me to open up my song notebook only to find that I had nothing. Nothing good on any of the pages and nothing good in my head. I suck. I can't write and anything I do write sounds stupid. The melodies to my songs sound like stupid pop ballads. The lyrics are whiny and pathetic. I can't do anything. I have no talent. I can't sing or act or dance and I'm not a brain and I'm horrible at sports. My writing sucks and the only thing I was ever good at was that stupid clarinet that I played for three years. And I HATED it! Is that all I'm good at? Being a band geek? Fantastic! I hate me. I hate everything about me.
Okay. I'm done. Although, now that I think about... being able to pick up on an instrument quickly is sort of good. But like all humans, I still want MORE.
A Rant By Me: It's Just Nice To Vent
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A Rant By Me: It's Just Nice To Vent
Turning over in interrupted slumber,
You ponder others, growing ever wakeful,
You've locked the vermin in the other bedroom,
To be so perfect causes you to feel so thankful,
Now find the fault because your boyfriend can't read,
Reflecting on to you is all the bitterness you need,
So unhappy, yet so preoccupied,
Never found beaten down with your forked tongue tied.
Your eulogy is like poetry,
But your mouth is like a magazine.
Queen dependency is cowering, please don't be confused,
You are vacant and submissive, receptive to abuse,
Virtue isn't tangible, and sense of self is dated,
Names constant on your cracked lips are now eviscerated,
Your spine is made of metal, Your veins are bound in electric tape,
And all along an impulse lights at random in your face,
Yough cought up an offering and forget which words are lies,
Then your skull echoes a singeing pop, as your brain is cauterized.
-"Mouth Like A Magazine" Showbread
You ponder others, growing ever wakeful,
You've locked the vermin in the other bedroom,
To be so perfect causes you to feel so thankful,
Now find the fault because your boyfriend can't read,
Reflecting on to you is all the bitterness you need,
So unhappy, yet so preoccupied,
Never found beaten down with your forked tongue tied.
Your eulogy is like poetry,
But your mouth is like a magazine.
Queen dependency is cowering, please don't be confused,
You are vacant and submissive, receptive to abuse,
Virtue isn't tangible, and sense of self is dated,
Names constant on your cracked lips are now eviscerated,
Your spine is made of metal, Your veins are bound in electric tape,
And all along an impulse lights at random in your face,
Yough cought up an offering and forget which words are lies,
Then your skull echoes a singeing pop, as your brain is cauterized.
-"Mouth Like A Magazine" Showbread
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Re: A Rant By Me: It's Just Nice To Vent
I'm sorry you were feeling so down on yourself, dear. That's an awful way to be feeling and thinking. But you know what, we are all our own worst critic. I bet that your songs are amazing! The fact that you can write music and lyrics and create songs, that's awesome.
A very wonderful talent. And I'm sure that they aren't whiny or pop ballad-y. I'm sure the lyrics mean something to you and that makes them great.And hey! I ADORE the band geeks. (I'm a chorus geek myself
) But the music people are just way better people. Don't put yourself down so much, dear. Be proud of what you've done and realize that it's okay not to be THE best at everything, as long as you do YOUR best at everything.
Hannah"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall." Confucius
Romans 5:8 "God demonstrates His own love toward us in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us."
"If you judge people, you have no time to love them." Mother Theresa
"A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty." Sir Winston Churchill
There is no revenge so complete as forgiveness.
Romans 5:8 "God demonstrates His own love toward us in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us."
"If you judge people, you have no time to love them." Mother Theresa
"A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty." Sir Winston Churchill
There is no revenge so complete as forgiveness.
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hun, im a band geek right there with you!!!! lol. I played snare drum in my high school marching band for 4 years. Im right there with you lol. Im sure your songs are great. If you dont like them, change them. All writers have writers blocks every once in a while. Ima writer and I have them all the time, it'll pass its no biggie. Stop being so hard on yourself. Im sure your good at alot of things. Like Hannah said, its ok not to be the best at everything, just do your best at everything......
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Cause I am stricken and cant let you go ~Disturbed
The prettiest people do the ugliest things ~ K. West
Do you pull me up just to push me down again ~Mudvayne
And when Im gone just carry on, dont morn, rejoyce everytime you hear the sound of my voice just know that im lookin down on you smiling and i didnt feel a thing so baby dont feel my pain just smile back
The prettiest people do the ugliest things ~ K. West
Do you pull me up just to push me down again ~Mudvayne
And when Im gone just carry on, dont morn, rejoyce everytime you hear the sound of my voice just know that im lookin down on you smiling and i didnt feel a thing so baby dont feel my pain just smile back