So Sick Of Not Knowing...

[arothma]

Let me start from the beginning... I am a 19 year old freshman in college who has questioned their sexuality for 6 years now... It is crazy.. like i can't differentiate my feelings for my friends and possible girl crushes... I love my friends but do i love them like that?? or just as friends?? I can't figure it out. I have experimented with girls and nothing.. like I get turned.. but once i get to a certain point i feel sick.. Do i see it just as a challenge?? I have also had many relsationships with guys.. i find guys attractive. I think they r cute and do check them out. Thats is where the confusion starts bc am i checking them out bc i like them or bc society tells me its the right way?? I have soo many questions and no answers for them. I also have cincidered if I just think i am a lesbian because someone told me that i am. I just want to know and it is driving me crazy. Then my religion comes into play. I am a strong christian and in the bible it says its wrong. but did God make me this way?? if so, he doesnt make misakes so He intended me to be this way. I just don't know and it kills me not to. I am not atteacted to random girls either. It is mostly my close friends. Like my best friends. If anyone knows how i feel or have any advice I would love to hear it. Thanks

[SirPostAlot]

Well first of all just empty your mind of all of these questions ~ they drove me insane (as they are doing w/ you)...

just empty your mind and live each day as you wish to live it w/o mental intravention...



as for checking guys out ~ i mean i find females attractive and may check them out (though not nearly as much as i check guys out) but that desn't make me bi or anything ~ its just the eye wandering...



so don't relaly worry about labeling yourself...just love yourself and don't worry about what others (weither it be people or religion causes) desire ...



*hug*



~Jeff~