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[Rivv]

i hate it when i'm in a bad mood

and that makes everyone else mad at me

which makes me madder.

and it's all because i can't do drugs

how lame is that?

really lame i knowwwww.

i hate being sober

i hate being tempted every time i think of him.



UGHHHH.

[anonymous08]

*hugs*

feeling any better today?

[Rivv]

a little bit.

last night Sam called me and was all

"if you want me to stop heroin, just say so"

so of course i get mad and yell

"I'VE BEEN TELLING YOU THAT FOR THE PAST WEEK, SAMUEL"

and hang up on him.

I saw him today and I could tell that he didn't have anything

he looked so miserable that it made me happy.

like he was actually trying to do something right..



but when i got home i found out that my rabbit bit my cat three times so i had to clean that whole mess up.



what about you? did your day go any better?

[anonymous08]

yup. i'm feeling much better.

i'm glad sam's trying to get better.

[Rivv]

His dad found his stash.

he's probably going to be sent away to some rehab

or to his moms.

[Rivv]

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wow. today pretty much SUCKED MY PEN15.

if i had one that is.

started off with getting woken up by a phone call from Sam saying "I CAN'T BE FRIENDS WITH YOU ANYMORE. YOU MAKE ME SICK. FUCKYOU."

then Angel gets all grrrr at me just because she's in a bad mood.

that continues throughout the day, i say something and she yells at me or glares at me.

i've had a headache all week that doesn't seem to be subsiding and we don't have anymore advil because of it.



i think the only portion of the day i enjoyed was the hour i talked on the phone with Ryan.

why the hell i talked to him? I have no idea. but it just made me happy.

{ohyeah, he's in the center i was staying at. his dad sent him there. haha.}



stupidexboyfriend.

not supposed to make me happy.



e_e





sorry for the rant.