The Rumors Are True

[NeverReallySeen]

i realized today that all the rumors about me are true. i'm mean. i talk about people. i'm a rude bitch. no one wants to be around me accept a few people. i'm a weird cutting suicidal freak. i'm fat, ugly, dumb. i feel so worthless. i feel like everyone hates me. like i shouldnt be around anymore. i wish i could just disappear. i'm a rude person. people dont wanna be around me anymore. i'm bring everyone down. i'm just an awful person

[Michie]

Dear scared,

You are outstanding and an amazing person. I only know you on this site, but I can tell that you are caring and a great listener and always eager to help people who are going through their troubles. Your responses and advice always show deep thought, compassion, and understanding, and you help so many people on this site.

I wish for you that your schoolmates will wake up and realize what a great person you are.

You are not those rumours.



Lots of hugs and kisses,

-Michie-

[Rckr51]

You arent worthless trust me. If you dont feel like ne one around you likes you well first you have to like yourself. Now i dont mean be concieded or whatever i just mean to be ok with yourself. Thats the first step. Then the second step is to find your true friends the people that will like you for you. Then the third is to put a rubberband around your wrist and every time you feel like hurting yourself just snap it on your wrist. and if you need a friend im always here.

[archers_angel]

You have the power to change your life, and change the way people think about you.



If you died to-morrow, would you want to be remembered as someone who was a bitch, who was rude, and who talked about people behind the backs? No. You would want to be remembered for your good qualities, the ones that we can see here. That you're thoughtful and considerate, and you care about others.



So show people that! Show them what a nice person you can be! Stop bitching about people, and start helping them out. Think about the person you would like to be remembered as, then become that person. Do everything you can do to make yourself proud of who you are, then you'll stop feeling worthless.

[S.G.T]

Hey.. no one is perfect in this world. it's same for everyone..

actually i'm also rude sometimes to people around me.. but i don't care..



Try not to think negative ok.. you are who u r. Not what others think!!



I wish u gd luck

[NeverReallySeen]

but they're all true. i try to make my friends feel small, because i feel small. i feel like if i make them less then what they really are, then i will feel in power. u see, my mom makes me feel small, and then i make my friends feel small to make me big. i dont know if that makes any sense, but its the only way i know how to explain it. i'm an awful friend. we joke around a lot, but the things i say are awful. i shouldnt even have friends anymore. i'm an awful person

[Shwynsh]

You know what? The important thing is that you've realized all of this. What's millions of times worse is when people act like that, and they have no idea. When they think it's okay. You understand what you're doing, and the first step to changing is understanding yourself. You're on the way. Now just work on it. You can do it, don't wimp out.

[Michie]

Actually what you just said so reminds me of me...in another way.

You feel small because of your mom and as a result you are trying to feel bigger when with your friends, a situation away from your mom of course.

Here's the thing. Maybe you feel like you aren't respected enough or that your opinion doesn't matter when it comes to your mom. And you need a place where your opinions are respected and mattered...hence you choose your friends.



Problem is, it's not making you happy because then other people see you as a controlling person, when really that is not your intent. You just want to feel special. Sorry. I realize I am putting words into your mouth. I'm just looking into it as if we are very alike, even if we are not.

Solution? I don't know one as of now. My situation with respect to feeling bad and putting other people 'down' is so different from yours. But something has to change.



Here would be my steps

1) Ensure acceptance and address your friends. (do your friends still want to be your friends if you will try to be less bossy to them?) In my case, will my bf still like me?

2) Address reasons for your actions. (Identify the things that cause you to boss your friends around, which seems to be your mother. Mend and fix

3) Address your actions, and change them.



1) is just necessary for me because I am totally afraid of rejection



Hope this helped.

[NeverReallySeen]

i know. thats exactely how i feel. like i must make others small in order to feel big. but today, my softball coach told me that yesterday i was rude to my mom. that i was teating her like the dirt i walk on, when i was only talking to my mom. she said that my mom feeds me, gives me clothes, ect. she made me feel awful. she's like, u were treating her awful and i dont know whats allowed at home, but thats unexceptable here. blah blah blah. it really upset me though. i was like, u have no room to say anything about that. u dont know what my mom says to me or how she makes me feel. u dont know what goes on in my house when the doors are locked. i was so upset. after a shower, cutting, and crying, i realized she was right. i am a bitch, i'm a mean hearted person. i dont even deserve to live. i'm a mean selfish, stupid person!

[FranklinF]

so try to be "happier" around ppl and try to see a therapist...-MARY

[Michie]

You do deserve to live. While your behaviour might not be the best, you are a great person inside and that's more important. I don't think you are mean spirited.

[Carousel]

You do deserve to live. While your behaviour might not be the best, you are a great person inside and that's more important. I don't think you are mean spirited.

I totally agree.



I doubt you are, but you could always change your ways of being rude. Just watch what you say and work your way up on what you let come out. And if your overweight, you can change that. You won't see change overnight, but eventually, you'll get there.