Suicide

[NeverReallySeen]

So here we are in health class learning about emotional health. And on the second day of notes, we started on suicide. So we take these notes and what not. Then my teacher draws a line on the board and says "This is Jane's time line of her life" She told us to yell out things that are awsome that can happen in someones life. So we do, she found a cure for aids, became the first woman president, learns to clone her dog, get married, have a family, graduate. Some were kinda out of wack, likfe cloning the dog and curing aids, but its stuff that can be accomplished. Well we have this awsome time line, and the teacher goes "Thats too bad because at age 14 Jane took her own life. No woman president, no cure for aids, no cloning of her dog" And I think thats kinda weird it hit me, that when Carol took her life, she really took it away. All her goals, everything she could have accomplished will never happen. I guess everyone in the class was trying not to think about, but I knew everyone was thinking about her. Its so hard to believe that someone from my town, my school, someone I played softball with when we were younger took her own life. I have always thought that it could never happen around here, but it did. Her death has been over 7 months ago, and I still think about it, and the day we found out. I still get scary visions of her ending it, or I think of all the pain she was in, and how well she hid it. I dont know why I posted this, its just so weird that when my teacher started erasing "president" and "cure for aids" that I realized Carol really ended her life forever...

[Barbies are Evil]

i'm sorry sweetie, that must've really sucked...........but shouldn't this be in Family/Friends? just a thought.....but I am sorry this is still so hard for you.........

[Kit]

It is a very hard thing to think about. It's scary that someone that you knew committed suicide. It's something that no one can not change - but you can make a difference. You can remind people of those feelings and remind them of what happened. If that happens, it will deture a LOT of people from suicide. If you want to talk, I'm around.



Sammi



Ps - I think this needs to stay. It does deal more with the effects of suicide. But I could be wrong. Like usual

[NeverReallySeen]

I know, its just, I still cant get over the fact that someone I used to talk to, someone I saw at school, just the fact that I will never ever see her again, its just so hard to believe. I cant imagine how much pain she must have been in, and how hard she tryed to hide it, because no one saw her pain, on the outside. I just wish someone could have seen it, but she hid it so well. No one could have known her true pain, and that she truely couldnt find another way out. I just cant believe it.

[Kit]

Take this as a lesson for yourself. Tell people when you're depressed, if you feel suicide, let it be known. There ARE other ways out. She just didn't see them. You do. You can use them.



Sammi

[Toy Soldier]

Its likely your teacher was trying to make people know more about suicide and what to do if you feel that way or if you know someone who feels that way...Understandable how it hit close to home. Has it like given you any closure on Carol's life? Because you said that you realise that Carol was'nt coming back.



~*~Ruth~*~

[Lena]

I think the 'Why Me?' forum is an appropriate place for this topic, as it isn't directly asking for help with the issue. *Moving ----> Why Me?*



I'll place a link into our 'inspirational words' topic, though.



Take care,



Lena.

[Lena]

Originally posted by scared@Sep 3 2005, 12:23 AM

So here we are in health class learning about emotional health. And on the second day of notes, we started on suicide. So we take these notes and what not. Then my teacher draws a line on the board and says "This is Jane's time line of her life" She told us to yell out things that are awsome that can happen in someones life. So we do, she found a cure for aids, became the first woman president, learns to clone her dog, get married, have a family, graduate. Some were kinda out of wack, likfe cloning the dog and curing aids, but its stuff that can be accomplished. Well we have this awsome time line, and the teacher goes "Thats too bad because at age 14 Jane took her own life. No woman president, no cure for aids, no cloning of her dog" And I think thats kinda weird it hit me, that when Carol took her life, she really took it away. All her goals, everything she could have accomplished will never happen. I guess everyone in the class was trying not to think about, but I knew everyone was thinking about her. Its so hard to believe that someone from my town, my school, someone I played softball with when we were younger took her own life. I have always thought that it could never happen around here, but it did. Her death has been over 7 months ago, and I still think about it, and the day we found out. I still get scary visions of her ending it, or I think of all the pain she was in, and how well she hid it. I dont know why I posted this, its just so weird that when my teacher started erasing "president" and "cure for aids" that I realized Carol really ended her life forever...

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Natalie, I know its hard to deal with and come to terms with.... but with time, some of this pain will heal.



I'm glad you shared this story with us. Its hard hitting but true, and I hope it helps people here.



Take care,



Love Lena.

[NeverReallySeen]

I still cant get over the fact that she ended her life on her own. I look at all the ppl from the hurricanes and think, they're fighting so much for they're lives, and she ended hers on her own will. she took it freely. I always wonder what she was thinking when she ended it all. How could she have taken her life so freely, and why. Why did she take her life? So many people loved her. She had so much going for her. I just cant get why someone would end their lives. She has no future anymore, she can never have a family or anything. She isnt here anymore. Why?