Keep Going?

[Trapped]

I meant/thought I typed this 3 days ago...maybe so, and it got deleted...or, hmm...whatever, but here it is now *smile**smile*smile*



sry for ALL the typos, I'm only getting like 1 1/2 hr sleep tonight.



There's just so much, that's there, that's me!!, but I don't know how to bring i tall forawrd. because i'm trying to (wanting) to bring it all forward at once...

there's always been so mcuh hiding back, and I feel that, though fragile, there's a small sense of....hmm, a small gate or slit of open air that's allowing me to come forward, sort of like a back door opening...before a storm (sry, don't mean to insinuate necessarily a negative sequence, but please..bear with me), but right now...you can just feel the wind a little bit, and the sky seems...brigther (instead of darker - for a bad storm)...I feel that listening to something (LP, to be exact) and (hmm little bit of animosity goin on) approaching this backwards, worse b4 better, or at least thinking so ,is what brought on this...urge...I think I want it to continue...And tho, money is still tight, and things aren't perfectly erect right now, some things are going ok, b/c I"m finally able to put myself in place, with where I am...(and) in relation to the rest of the world, not behind it or underneath it in another universe. I'm not sure that I can ask, how to...what to do to subtly encourage this new onset (though I am asking that- how to keep it going...like flame, even if it's low, it's low positivism??..and it need to at least exist, right?), and I don't want or mean to give myself airs, but I"m feeling so....as if walking on a bright (but not too much) in the right weather. I have some questions, as to what to do next, but I don't want to get ahead of myself and let it all fall in fron to of me. I'm stopping for any clarifications?? Hmm, I *hum and little bit of nervousness and retrograde b/c I have a model interview/free evaluation tomorrow, and my mum has to be there...*eeh**smile*



Thanx guys. (everyone)

[Horizon]

Sounds like you needed that emotional release pretty bad. Hope things are going your way.